Some Lyrics Says It All...

If silence is beautiful, words are powerful. It is the power of words, by which listening to an old song sometimes evokes so many untouched emotions in you. The emotions which were buried deep under the piles of all the debris in your heart. The poor emotions which could not surface above, no matter how much they tried to. But, just one old song is capable of bringing back all the old memories associated with it like a hurricane and churn you inside out, leaving you shattered for a long after its gone. All we can do is collect the broken pieces once again and try to bind them together and make sense of it, even though it made no sense then, nor today.

One of my most unforgettable memories related to a song is from the last days in my Engineering hostel. The memory which is deeply carved in my heart. One evening I and my best friend Surabhi were lying on her bed together and listening to the random songs on her cell phone. One earphone was in my ear and she was using the other. Then the song began playing which we loved the most. It was the song Kahi Toh Hogi Woh from the movie Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na. Initially, we were enjoying the song and its soulful lyrics but as the song proceeded we both slowly became quite. Completely quite. So quite that in a few moments, the tears began welling up in our eyes and soon after we begun weeping like babies, hugging each other. No words were required in that moment to convey each other the reason for us to weep. The pain of separation which we were avoiding to accept was approaching soon. It was the magic of the song, that made a way to our pain to surface out, which we were avoiding.

The song whose every word was meant for us and our state of mind at that moment. From then, even after so many years have passed, this song has remained close to my heart. And I am sure it is equally important to my friend Surabhi as well.

And here it goes...

Yes!!! Priorities do change with time...

It's a strange feeling these days when I open my Facebook account. Its just like yesterday my Facebook feed use to be flooded with the pics of the beautiful girls dressed in super amazing outfit partying hard and today all I can see is the same girls posting their wedding pics or pics either with their babies or with baby bump. 

They say that the marriage changes everything. Yes! that's true. It has beautifully changed my dull boring routine life suddenly into a fairy tale. Well, not everyone are equally lucky. It all depends on the person you choose to spend your entire life with. Mine is an arrange marriage. And I totally believe arrange marriage is like gambling with your own life. If you are lucky enough you win happiness for a lifetime and if your stars aren't with you then its a hell forever. I am lucky enough to get a life partner like Deep. He is someone who cares without limit and love without boundaries. Hmmm.. something like "unconditional" wala love. He plays a guitar for me, cooks food for me when I am bored of cooking, gets bugged but still watches any of my stupidest favorite movie with me without complain, food ordered in restaurant is always according to my choice, he eats anything and everything I cook even if the food is spicy, bitter, salty or has no salt at all, I become a total kid when I am with him and he takes care of me with all his heart. What more then this can a girl ask for! :-)

Life is changing even more rapidly. The things for which I was crazy just a few months back interests me no more. Expense tracker app on my cell phone is more active then whatsapp now. My eyes whose attention was once grabbed by designer bags and sandals now checks out fresh vegetables or house decorative items shops. Just few months back the biggest task for my mom was to wake me up in the morning and now this little Mumma's girl is managing house and work at the same time in a complete new city. Journey from a small town to the busiest metro city of India, Mumbai was never difficult or tiring. As my companion in this journey has taken care of me in every single step that I took.

Year 2013 was a roller coaster ride for me. Life changed and so did priorities. In this one year I quit one job, got married, shifted to new city Pune, once again shifted to a new city Mumbai, joined a new job. Though I am left with no time for myself I am just loving the life I am living. 

The Battle Within...

I have always heard that happiness lies in the little things. And yes! I have learnt to enjoy the happiness in little things lately. But, in this meanwhile I have realized that I have even learnt to feel the sadness in little things.

Today morning when I woke up I heard my neighbours cat yelling so badly. I saw she was searching something vigorously everywhere. Initially I did not understand what was the reason. But when my mom told me the reason behind her grief my heart ached. Just 3 weeks back this cat has given birth to a very cute kitten. The baby was very active and naughty and would keep hoping all the day here and there. But, I got to know from my mom that since morning it was missing. It was a terrible moment to look at the mother cat searching her kid so helplessly.

I woke up with such a bad moment today and since than my mindset is very disturbed. Sometimes I feel the people who know us or meet us has an image about us that we are so strong. Our friends, our colleagues, our relatives, our siblings, our parents, nobody, absolutely nobody knows about the battle that we fight within. And all this is because we have mastered ourself in faking it.

"Its just impossible to mask sadness on your face when you are happy but its not difficult to fake a smile when you are dying inside" -Sonia

Something to Learn..

Sachin ni maarli six,
Aaji la aala chakkar,
Mama ni aandli riksha,
Riksha che paise sodaa,
Aaji ni maarla dolaa... ;-)

I heard this very sweet poem which is in Marathi language yesterday evening from this little boy Laxman.

Hindi Translation for those who don't understand Marathi: 

Sachin Ne maari six,

Nani ko aaya chakkar,

Mama ne laayi riksha,

Riskha ke paise chodo,

Nani ne maari aankh.. [Well, the poem doesn't rhyme in Hindi :( ]

Laxman is nine years old and studies in 3rd standard Kannada medium in one of the nearby village. Yesterday evening when I reached home after my work this boy came to my home along with one of my mothers friend Kalpana Aunty. She is a teacher in the same school where this boy studies and is heartly a very lovely lady. As soon as he got inside my house he directly came and sat on the floor. I felt bad when he did that. I asked him to sit on the chair and he followed it. On asking Kalpana Aunty about his whereabouts she told that his dad is a milk seller in the village and due to the financial problems is not able to take proper care of him. Laxman's mother left Laxman, his father and his 2 brothers just after giving birth to Laxman and is now with some other person. People think  that extra marital affairs happens only in metros or big cities but if we look very closely into the villages then the number of such things are really in large number even in our villages. Shocking but its a fact. 

Laxman's mother never came to see him or even his two elder brothers who are in 7th and 8th standard respectively. Kalpana aunty after listening to Laxmans story could not stop herself from taking Laxmans care  till it is possible by her hands. Now Laxman stay along with Kalpana Aunty since last few days and she looks after his food and also school. Despite of so many problems this little boy is so full of life that I could not take of my eyes from looking at him. I gave him two perk chocolates which aunty asked him to have it after getting back to home and he obeyed her without saying a word. I can bet on anything the kids which are born and brought up at our house with all the facilities and luxuries would never ever behave the way Laxman did. When I served him a dosa and tea he again went and sat on the floor to have it. Looking at his innocence I could not stop my self and I too joined him to the floor and we had a great time talking to each other. On asking him to tell a poem he sung those few funny Marathi lines which are at the starting of my post. Then I teared opened one of the perk and asked him to have it which he had. He wanted to have other one to but due to aunt's order of having it after getting back to home this obedient boy stopped himself. As my habit of taking pictures of whatever I like I took this picture of Laxman smiling happily which you can see in this post.

My mom asked if Laxmans dad is ready to give Laxman, as one of my uncles friend was interested in adopting a child. Kalpana Aunty told that she would let us know after asking Laxmans father. If Laxman gets a good life if some good family accepts him as their son then why not. Isn't it? Well, only if his dad agrees. Its all left on him now. But I wish whatever the decision might be Laxman's way of living life always remains same..

The most admiring fact about Laxman's dad is that despite of his financial problems he has given education to all his children's.

We who have got everything that is necessary. In fact we have got more then it is required but still have so many complaints about our life. Our parents unconditional love and pamper, education in some reputed schools and colleges, just one demand and our favorite food is ready for us and if its not we go to bed with empty stomach but even after that we say our life is so imperfect. We need to learn something from the boys like Laxman to whom even the little things give lots of joy and who knows the real mantra to remain happy no matter what :-) 

Sweetness added, stirred and diluted...

I had a perfect Sunday this week. Well, a perfect Sunday to me is a lazy day which starts with my Mom's so many failed attempts to wake me up. Finally when I get up, the first thing to do as my daily routine is to on the TV and switch it on to MTV and listen to the songs while I get fresh and then stuff myself with the perfectly heavy tasty South Indian breakfast like Idli or Dosa prepared by my Mom and become even more lazier. After that again sit in front of the TV and watch anything aired to pass the time and then get into kitchen to cook the menu of the day. I was bored of fish and chicken curry's and chicken biryani so i decided to prepare Daal and Fish fry along with it. Yes Daal and fish fry is a very tasty combination. What can be more soothing to soul then having a peaceful afternoon nap as soon as you finish with your lunch? And after getting up from my dreamy world having a kadak tea with some snacks along with a Hindi movie makes my perfect Sunday. Yes, I don't even have to step my foot outside the door to make my day perfect.

Evening I had nothing to do and so I was just lying on my bed and I randomly begin to view the old pictures in my cell phone. While viewing them I found one old photo which literally brought a wide smile on my face. The photo of the cute little innocent kids whom I met few months back. Though the picture might not be so clear as it was shot in the low evening light from my cell phone camera which is just 3.2 Mega Pixels, the serene smile of these kids makes this photo truly admirable. Let me share this sweet incident with you now.

It was in the month of February when I was getting back to my home after my office. Evening around 6.30 I reached bus stand to find out there were no bus which can take me to my home. So I took out the book "The Lost Story" which I was reading then  from my bag and began to read it. I realized some one came and sat very close to me but I was so much engrossed in the book that I did not care to bother and look who it was. Few minutes later I was distracted by the giggles which made me to look at the person sitting next to me. I noticed these kids smiling looking at me and also prompting each other something. I too smiled looking at them and immediately noticed that the elder girl gave some signals to her younger bro by hitting her elbow to him and making some animated signals by her eyes with a smile. I kept looking at their innocence with a smile and was surprised when this little boy gave me an Alpenliebe Chocolate and innocently said, " Chocolate lo na Didi". At that moment I really did not get how to react. I just took the chocolate and thanked them. Then I realized that this girl was making the signals to her brother to give that chocolate to me. I asked them for a photograph to which they posed happily and then asked their names. The little boy told me he is Mohammed Yusuf and girl was Sameena. And then we had a little chat and I had to leave as my bus had arrived.

It was a very small meeting of not more then 5 minutes indeed but now these kids and their sweetness will remain in my memories with me forever through this photograph and through this post. :)

P.S: Thank you so much Saru, Mithlash and Izdiher for motivating me to write something new by constantly asking me about my next post when ever there is a long gap in between my posts. Feels loved. :) 

P.P.S: I have finished reading the book "The Lost Story" almost 2 months back but now when I have already mentioned about the book then let me share a few lines about it. The Lost Story is a fictional book written by authors Amit Goyal and Sudhanshu Gupta. This is the first book by both the authors but the work they have done is of genius. There are many stories in the book but we will not find a single instant which makes us feel that we are disconnected from the main story. Very interesting book with each stories which have got unexpected twist and turns and  an jaw dropping end too. In short, the must read and it definitely keeps us hooked till the end.

My Childhood Through The Eyes of My Real Hero...

Its said that "If you carry your childhood with you, you never become older"

The most beautiful phase in every individuals life is their childhood. No matter how old we become but these childhood memories are like a treasure which always remain with us throughout our life as a sweet smile. Even the mere thought of childhood gives us a tickle and takes us to the flashback of those sweet memories. So how many of them remember these ice candies in the above photo which were sold just outside your school and no matter how many warnings your mother gave you not to eat it, you always had that one rupee in your pocket to buy these icy cold candies. 

Now just imagine, What if you get to re-live your entire childhood once again? Wouldn't that be awesome? But, is it really possible to re-live your childhood once again?  If somebody would have asked me this question then my answer would be definitely a big Yes... I have no idea about others but Yes I have something with me, a treasure, a gift, hmmm a most precious gift that is for a life time gifted by my real Hero, My DAD :-) 

My Dad has capsulated and insulated my entire childhood and its memories by capturing it in photos and making a album of it which will be with me till my last breath. Its my only pride possession which is very close to my heart and a most precious thing to me. Here, I am sharing some of the photos in this post.

During my childhood days there were no Digi-Cams by which u can take multiple number of pictures anytime. But the Kodak cameras were used with a roll which consisted a photographic film. Later these rolls were given to the studio and then the studio people would develop the photos out of the negatives generated from photographic films. Unlike digital  cameras there were no technique which could be used to date the photo. So as you can see in these pictures my dad has made use of the date seal to date each and every photo taken. Date seal is something which had a date marks on it as shown in the picture. On adjusting the wheels the required date could be obtained and then this date stamp had to be tapped to the ink pad and then tap it back immediately to the required sheet of paper on which you need the date marked. In my case, Dad used the similar to mark the date on each photo.

After inserting the photos in the transparent pockets of the album, he has sealed the open end of the pocket by a transparent sticking tape so that the photos doesn't come in contact with moisture contents and last longer or say forever :-) Isn't it lovely?

What could be more exiting then seeing the way you have dressed up with your little school bag and water bottle on the first day of your school. Yes, my dad has taken this picture on the first day of my school. I still remember I had cried the whole day in school but later was completely happy as my dad took me to beach after my school  and captured this photo of mine. How easily such little joys would make us forget our big pain with in fraction of seconds then.:)

Since I have been  born and brought up in a coastal area going to the beach at evening, on every alternate days as a kid was a routine. After playing in the water for sometime we would move towards the kids park and then playing in the park on the kids amusement toys would be like I have got the happiness of the entire world. My dad's encouragement to make me try some other amusement toys which according to me were very gaint at that time, always went in vain. As I always liked to play the girly games which included swings, seesaw, marry go round or catching catch with other kids playing in the park.

And the most best moment of the day would be while getting back home as I would get a chance to visit all the ice-cream and toy stalls which were just outside the beach, making good business by kids like me. And the happiness after getting something from the stall would have no bound. My dad would love to capture such moment in the photo like he has done after he bought this hand-made hat for me and I was on the top of the world, laughing uncontrollably with joy.

I remember the day so well when me and my mom went for shopping along with my aunt and I had liked this green dress which I am wearing in this photo. My like for this green dress was only because it had some kinda golden accessory pinned at the chest and to me it looked so attractive that I felt that there could be no other dress as beautiful as that on this whole planet. My mom did not buy it and instead took some other dress for me and we returned back to home. I was sad and was still missing the dress. But, to my surprise my dad came home with the same dress which mom had not bought even after I had insisted so much. My eyes sparkled and I was on cloud 9 knowing that the most beautiful dress of the world was mine now. And it was also the day of my victory and I  still remember so well, how I teased my mom by making animated actions with my one hand holding the dress in the other hand and dancing all around the room, screaming at the top of my voice. But i had wondered that day, how my dad got to know that I had liked that dress and brought it for me as he was not with us when I had went for shopping with mom and aunt. I still wonder even now about it, whether it was really a co-incidence or what was it, I still wonder :-)

As we know certain things never change with the age and one such thing in me is my love for cats. I love cats since I was a kid and I think this love is passed to me from my dad as he loved the cats too. Cats have always played an important role in my life since I was a kid. It has been my best friend from then till now with whom I have shared all my happiness, guilt, pain, worries or love and it has unconditionally loved me back too.

My dad passed away when I was 5 years old and along with that even me posing to the camera also stopped as no one else was interested to take my pictures after that. But even after almost 20 years, I can still feel his presence, his care, his affection, his love for his only princess through this gift of life time which he has created only for me. As much time me and my dad have spent together, is freezed in this album and will remain forever with me. This album not only connects me to my childhood but it also connects me to my dad :)

This post is specially written for The Kissan 100% Real Blogger Contest by indiblogger. You can see the post at indiblogger here.
Planning to go on a trip with Mummy if I win :)

Unexpected Thrilling Journey...

This Saturday I was going to my hometown Karwar and I was again excited as always for that . But this time the excitement was to the peak as I was going to attend my cousin sister's engagement ceremony which was on Sunday. The journey to my hometown Karwar from my work place is around 5 hrs and the only way to travel is by a Government Bus.

The most common thing I observe is whenever I have plans to go to my hometown I will be flooded with so much of work that it gets impossible for me to leave office early. The last bus to Karwar was at 5.30PM and to catch it I again need to travel to a nearby place for half an hour by another bus. I completed all the work and left office at 4.15 and was sure that without any hurdles I would easily get into 5.30 bus. But, life would have been so simpler if everything would go smoothly according to our plan, right?

When I reached half a way I got to know that the streets were blocked due to some big politician's visit to the nearby village and due to which my bus had to take another route which was around 15 Kms long than the usual route and to my good luck the roads of that village were too in a very bad conditions. Only few minutes were remaining for 5.30 and my bus was moving with a speed of which even the cycle could have left it far behind if there was a race in between the both and my watch was running with a rocket speed. The bus some how managed to reach near to the place from where I had to catch my Karwar bus and that made me a little relieved now. But this was only for few seconds as I saw my Karwar bus crossing the bus I was in with the full speed. I screamed at the top of my voice, " Oh Nooooo... My bus" and hurried and asked conductor to stop the bus so that I can get down. But till I got down from the bus I was in, the Karwar bus has gone far away from my sight and there I was in the middle of the road standing numb not knowing what to do next.

I got disappointed as everybody were waiting for me at Karwar and leaving next day early morning was not at all a good thought. But all of a sudden an idea popped in my mind to chase the bus and catch it. But, it was a very filmy idea and chasing the bus wasn't that easy in a village like that. I again started thinking quickly that who can help me out now as by hook or crook I had to get into that bus and somehow reach Karwar. At that moment the only name that flashed in my mind was of my friend Raj.

Let me introduce Raj here. His name is Rajesh but we call him as Raj ( Naam toh suna hoga naa :-P ) He is working in one of the branch of my office in the same place where I was stuck in. Me and Raj met in a exam hall where we both had appeared for the job exam and we both together got appointment order too. Due to same job work we happened to meet many times in trainings and meetings. He is most naughtiest and most helping  among all the staff. He was the topic of fun for all of us 6 months back as he got married at the age of 24 years. And a guy getting married at such an young age isn't acceptable these days. The reason for his early marriage was his parents force as Raj was afraid of staying alone at home. He was least interested to get married but was left with no choice. But, now he is very happy with his marriage and  luckily his parents have chosen a perfect wife for him too. We all are happy for him :)

Well, now let me come back to where I was. Standing in the middle of the road I called him and asked him to come immediately with the bike. He did not get what I was trying to say but only he understood was that I was in hurry. Though he was busy with his work he came immediately like a real Hero. And than there our chase started.  I explained him everything on the way. We rode for more than 10 Kms and I could only recall Dhoom movie at that moment. Even after riding so much we could not find any trace of bus. He was loosing hope but I requested him to keep riding for some more time as I still had hopes of reaching Karwar. We enquired the people standing there on the streets of those little villages about the bus and they told that they saw the bus passing only sometime back. After covering some more distance I saw a bus and gave a sigh of relief, As we reached near to the bus I started showing my hand and making signs to stop the bus. The driver must have seen me through the rear view mirror and stopped it. I thanked Raj and in hurry I got into the bus happily.

This was a thrilling experience for me and so I wanted to preserve it in this digital diary of my life so that I can recall this thrilling incident and my victory of catching a bus which will bring a smile on my face even when I get old:-)

And Raj I would like to thank you a million times for helping me out to attend my cousins engagement. You have helped me when I needed it the most and so I can never repay it to you in any ways. So my this post is a very small gift for your big help. Thank you, Thank you soooooooo soooooooo much :-)

And next day I could attend my cousins engagement just because of Raj. Raj you are a real superhero. Stay Happy:-) 

Nooooooooooo...

Today is one more day which I can list in one of the most embarrassing day in my life. In spite of being in such an embarrassing situation today, the mere thought of it is making me laugh on my stupidity.

This embarrassing time started with a phone call which I got this morning as I reached office. It was my colleague's call who asked me to hurry to the ground which was near to my office. On asking her the reason she told me that some competition is held there and so she wants me to come. Hearing this I got excited as I thought that there must be some competition in which kids would participate in singing or dancing or may be some rangoli competition which I could capture in my cell phone. Without a second thought I left office immediately and reached the place as told by her only to know that it was a complete different scene there from what I had expected it to be. 

To my shock it was not any easy participation but it was a women's throw ball competition of my office staff Vs some other office staff. Even before I was out of this shock they gave me another shock saying they want me to participate in it. My ear drums burst when I heard such a thing. All my efforts to deny it went it vain. A girl who was never involved in any outdoor sports even during the primary schooling was now a player in a team representing my office.  

A voice from my brain started taunting and teasing me with a wicked laugh *Khi Khi Khi Khi, Ab kya karegi Sonia?*

Within no time they instructed me the rules of the game and the game started. I was surprised to see a lady of age around 54 years who was so active and was playing so well and me being so young was standing numb like a statue looking here and there. I could not catch a single throw :-((. I heard my office political people commenting in Kannada, "Shaalege Hoglilva Ninu, Aata aadlilva? Ille direct appoint aagi bandiddiya?"(Din't you ever go to school and play? Are you directly appointed here?) I ignored them at that moment and prayed god to tear the earth wide open and engulf me inside it. I was just waiting eagerly for that embarrassing time to pass by soon and at last the game was finished.

Result was obvious. My office lost terribly. Well, its an understood fact that how can a team win if it has great players like me. :-P

I did nothing much there on ground rather than two or three failed attempts to catch the ball but I can sense that some of the bolts of my body parts are loosened and can even sense a little pain in my right leg too. I think I need a recharge after getting back home. Oh God why have I become so delicate or may be a better name would be dumb.:-/





So readers, have you ever been in such an awkward moment in your life? Then share it here in comments and lets laugh out hard and overcome that awkwardness which is still somewhere in our mind :-)


P.S: Just finished reading a book "Life is what you make it" by Preeti Shenoy. A very nice book with a inspiring story of Ankita's life. The author is capable to create the magic of words in this. I suggest every girl has to read this book. :)

Meeting...

I have penned this down on a paper notepad while I was attending a office Staff Meeting in the meeting hall of my office. I knew I would have no work to do there as there was no such subject related to my concerned section to be discussed but still I had to attend it and get bugged. So to save my self from dozing off I thought I would at least do this holy work ;-)

President and Commissioner of my office have decided to conduct a meeting today but I have nothing to do here. Just sitting idle on the chair looking at the people around me. The people who have spent more than 40+ years here, contributing more than half of their life in serving this office. In this huge time they even lost their hair and developed a big tummy but still everyone are happy with the life they have spent here. They must have joined this place when they were young and enthusiastic but this place has snatched all their charm and now the only thing they have is a dull face with a bald head and a big tummy. This makes me scared of turning like this after some years if I continue working here. "OH GOD PLEASE LISTEN TO ME, I DESPERATELY NEED A CHANGE"

The meeting has started and now I can hear all blah blah in Kannada. This is so nostalgic and I remember the time when I could rarely understand Kannada just couple of years back and people would laugh their ass out if I would try to talk in this language but thankfully these two years have made me not only understand but also to talk and write in Kannada. *My achievement* :-P.

Getting back from this nostalgic journey of learning Kannada language I can see different expression on everybody's face. Some face full of curiosity, some are pretending to write down something on paper, some fiddling with their cell phone, some looking at the wall clock for every few minutes,  some sleepy, some rusted brains are working almost after decade and that too just to think about the fake answers to give if a question regarding their work is been asked and some looking at me to figure out what am I penning down so seriously.

I always wonder why these people around me are so much curious to know everything that I do. Sometimes I feel I have dropped into some other planet where all the aliens around me are keeping an eye on me and sometimes I feel like I am an alien from other planet who is left back here on earth and all the people around me are very keen to observe every moment of mine.

Seeing my terribly bored face one of my colleague sent me a text who was sitting just opposite to me. I opened the message to read and it displayed, " Why this Kolavari Kolavari D?". With the same mood I replied him, "Because D comes after C, so it is Kolavari D" and gave a very artificial smile looking at him. 

Finally the time came for which I was eagerly waiting. Ya it was a tea time. I had a cup of tea and some snacks and the meeting got over. 

This is what happens in a meeting in a Government Office :)

Please spare me if you are bored after reading this as I have written it when I was completely bugged up.

P.S: After reading some good reviews in flipkart.com got a new book to read. "Few things left unsaid". Have finished just few pages but I must say I am really disappointed. Book is not worth reading even once. *tears* :-(

Notice for Celebrating New Year...

It was since more than one month me and my cousins  were planning for New Year Party. This years New Year party meant a lot for us as one of my cousin is getting married this year and so probably we may not get a chance to celebrate this occasion together from now on wards. I promised my little cousin Aishu who was most excited amongst us for this party that I will take a leave on 31st and will reach my home town early morning and we will make all the arrangements.

The party was planned. It was a beach party with some good food, some games, gifts and other stuffs.

So, finally the day had come. It was 30th and I had to apply for the leave(I have saved some leaves so that I can easily get it on 31st), I completed all my work before afternoon and with full excitement I applied for a leave. And guess what??? My leave was not sanctioned. My heart broke into thousand pieces :-(How could I cancel the entire plan just because of my silly boss who did not grant me a leave? Neither I wanted to break my little cousin Aishu's heart who was waiting for me and nor I wanted to cancel the entire plan just because of me. I requested my boss that its really urgent and I have completed all the office work. But he replied with  a big NO. I told him since its an emergency I will have to go even if leave won't be granted. But, my stoned hearted boss did not agree. I told myself, *Leave ki toh aisi ki taisi, Maar goli office ko* and I bunked the office.

We enjoyed the  party to the fullest and welcomed the year wholeheartedly. 

So 1st was Sunday and I spent it enjoying with my lovely cousins and today is the 1st day of this year at my office. As I entered today morning I was been welcomed by a notice for being absent on 31st. Notice states that my 1 day salary will be deducted and I need to give a reply to it within 24 hours or strict action will be taken against me :-P

Well, this is how my new year has started. Now let me see what all this year has got for me along with it.:-)

A Very Happy New Year Readers:-) May this year brings a lot of good luck to u all:) Happy Blogging:-)

P.S:  After a long wait from Flipkart.com and Bluedart couriers finally the book reached me today. Starting this year with the book Of Course I Love You..! I hope it is up to my expectations :-)

Santa Claus Gifts...

Just yesterday the entire world celebrated Christmas. By now Santa Claus must have finished distributing his gifts to everyone. So what did Santa uncle gift you friends? 

Hmmm.. Let me tell you about his gifts for me :-)

Today morning as usual I was walking to my office after the bus droped me at the bus stand. After walking for a while my eyes all of a sudden got stuck on the little colourful  dolls which a old lady has kept on a table nearby her. It was the first time this old lady was sitting there as I had never seen these dolls on my way to office earlier. I kept walking and went few steps ahead but I realized that those little dolls were still on my mind. They were not ready to leave my mind and have grabbed all my attention just in 1 look. It was not possible for me to keep walking ignoring them. I turned back and went to that old lady sitting there and asked her,'Are they for sale?'. She replied,'Yes!'. (I immediately felt how stupid I was to ask this question. What else a old lady will do sitting besides a table full of dolls at morning).

Out of those so many colorful dolls I selected this one.  "A LITTLE ANGEL". I don't know the reason but I am very much fantasized about angels. I have a wish that some day I meet an angel in reality. :) But, till than I am happy with this one.

The second piece I selected is " A SWEET COUPLE" sitting holding each others hands. May be I picked it up thinking that its me and my Mr.Right. *Wink*.

These cute colorful dolls made my entire day beautiful. I am sure that while getting back home I will not find that old lady sitting there with the dolls. May be Santa has sent his gifts to me in this way. :-D

So readers, what do you say? Did you like them? :-D

First image of Christmas decoration from Goggle and other two images clicked by my cell.

Arrival of A Little Fairy...

I was completely busy working at my office and heard my cell phone ringing. It was my Mom's call and I received it thinking why is she calling me at unexpected time.

ME: Hello.
MUMMY: What are you doing?
ME: Working Mummy. What Happened?
MUMMY: Get back home early today evening as we are going to attend some function.
ME: Function? What function and where?
MUMMY: Its your tailor aunties grand daughter babies Naming Ceremony.
ME: Whattt????? And you expect me to attend it huh? No ways.. Just forget it..
MUMMY: What is the problem if you come along with me? I don't want to go alone.
ME: But what should I do there. U go Mummy. I am not coming.
(I see my boss entering my cabin)
Mummy: I don't know anything. You are coming. That's it.
Me: (In the hurry to cut the call seeing my boss)
       Okay! Bye.

I forgot about this conversation and left office at the usual time. Totally strained because of work and travelling reached home to see Mom getting ready for the function.

ME: Oh! noo..
MUMMY: Come. Get freshen up and get ready soon. Lets go.
ME: Oh please Mummy I am damn tired. I can't.

MUMMY: You told me you will come along with me this morning when I called you. But now when I got ready you are saying you wont be coming huh? (with full emotional atyachaar).

ME: Okay! Okay! Now stop it. Let's go. At least gimme a cup of tea.
MUMMY: Lets have it there itself.
ME: :-( :-( :-(  (got ready).

We reached the place and I was shocked to see there was not even a single guest there. The main door was wide open, so I peeped in but could not see anyone. I knocked the door and then tailor aunty came out and welcomed us inside and said that the function was over this morning itself and she was waiting for us but got disappointed thinking we wont come. Mummy explained her that we would have come but due to our office it was not possible. She called us inside and rolled a mat on the floor and asked us to sit down.

As I settled down she brought a little fairy who was covered in light pink cloth and kept her on my lap. And OMG that moment was just awesomazingly awesome when I saw a 3 months old little fairy moving her tiny hand and legs on my lap.

Her sweet pink lips, her tiny fingers, her tender skin, her chubby cheeks, her innocent eyes made all my stress to disappear with in a fraction of second.

I asked tailor aunty, " So what have you named her as"?

She replied, "SONALIKA".

I said to this fairy, Hey Sonalika you are cho cute and her tiny pink lips took a shape of a curve and  she smiled as if she know me very well. :-)

Her Granny gave us some sweets and a cup of a tea and surprisingly said," Hey, look at her she is smiling. From morning so many guest have come and tried talking to her but she din't respond to anyone but now she is smiling at you".

And this was like a cherry on the top for me :-D

My smile became more wider listening to this. This little fairy has attracted my eye balls in such a way that I din't even wanted to wink my eyes. I din't wanted to leave the place so early but how long could I stay there?

Mom said to tailor aunty," Well, its late now. We should leave".

Even I said Bye to little fairy Sonalika and left to get back home and silently thanked my mom in my mind for taking me there.

I wish this little fairy lead her life like a princess and she gets the happiness of the entire world.



Image of this little fairy clicked by my cell phone.

Dark Evening...

Today is one more evening which can be counted among those evening which is more darker than usual. 

But as usual even today I have no idea what is that which is making me feel the depth of the darkness of this evening?

I questioned myself, even though everything was fine the whole day, what went wrong all of a sudden?

Only then I realized everything was fine only until I saw the calender and the date was 04.11.2011. Yes, today I completed two years at my work. But I actually need to be happy after realizing it but no, I am not. Well, there are so many countless reasons for that.

With all these weird thoughts and bad mood I reached home at evening around 7.30. Just entered home and my cell phone started ringing. It was my friend who called me to discuss about the problems she was facing while applying for passport. I gave some suggestions with out even giving her a hint about my bad mind set and she was satisfied with those suggestions and told she will try them and cut the call.

As I got fresh I heard once again my phone ringing. Well, this time it was my another friend who called to tel me his problems of adjusting with his room mate. In fact, his problems has got no end as everyday he call me with a brand new problem of his life. Honestly I had no patience but I tried my best to listen and make him feel better by discussing with him. But, for a moment I was silent which made my friend get hyper on me. This was not new to me as I am aware of his nature that in frustration he often does that. But even than a sentence spontaneously came out of my mouth, "Only you don't have problems in this world, everyone has got their own problems". Oh God, How could I say this to someone? I could make it out by his tone that my statement had hurt him. He could only say, "Sorry I will call you some other time" and cut the call which left me completely with a feeling of a guilt. Everyday I listen to his problems which makes him feel better but why did I become rude to him today? I shouldn't have said that to him. This was the best reason to worsen my mind set more. 

I sent him a message which was like" I am extremely sorry as I was strained due to work and have just reached home, my mind set was not at all good and may be that made me say that to you. I really din't mean it and I never thought I would be rude. I am Sorry".

Got no reply from his end. I wish I could control myself from making that sentence which have hurt him.Well, finally he replied with a message just before posting this blog " Its Okay, You made me realize something today. I do understand. Good Night".

And this is the way this dark evening has come to an end.

My Present Job... A Curse Or A Boon???

I always had so many complaints about my present job. May be this was because I had a dream of working in a MNC and not in a Government office. Unfortunately, being a 2009, Computer Science & Engineering passed out it was such a tough time to get placed during the time of recession. But, even during such a tough time when most of my batch mates were struggling to get placed, I luckily got a job so easily which had so many plus points. Plus points like my office was in my hometown, good designation, Mom made food, living at home and of course  a good payment (no private companies were paying so much for a fresher at the time of recession as much as my office offered me). Only a fool would refuse such an offer and I was not the one. So with out a second thought I jumped into it and this is how the story of my first job begins. 

So, now I had stepped into a journey of complete new experience. I started meeting some good people in this journey whom I will never forget in my lifetime and even met many irritating peoples too, whom I can never forget as well ;-P. From these day to day experiences i learnt a new lesson everyday which made me to understand people and life in a more better way. Well, initially I thought that I would have people around me at work place who has got similar thinking as that of mine, but here it was completely different. The most shocking thing for me was is and will always be is that even a highly qualified Officer with so many years of experience have to follow the orders of an illiterate politician who has no knowledge of anything which I hated from the core of my heart. I started hating such rules and regulations which had no sense at all.

So many wrong things keep happening around me everyday and there are none to stop them, as nobody think it is wrong. A very simple example I can give here is usage of Paper. I am very stingy while making use of office paper. I don't usually take printouts unless and until it is very necessary. But, they make fun of my this behavior at office. Even my boss asks me to take printouts of certain things which he wont even give a look and those papers directly go into his dustbin. If I say something regarding this my colleagues give a common comment " GOVERNMENT KA PAISA HAI, TU KYU TENSION LE RAHI HAI". I don't want to argue more with them on this matter because I believe in a policy "Live and Let Live, without interfering in anyone's business". Nor I want to protest against all these things and become a great personality. I am a common girl and happy with what I am. Hmmmm... if I keep on counting the negativities now then it will be a never ending list.

Well, now let me come to the advantages part. The most biggest and beautiful advantage of doing a job here is I got a chance to stay along with my Mom. Mom due to her work responsibilities could not stay with me since my childhood as she had to migrate from one place to other due to the frequent official transfers, she could not even take me along with her as it would effect my academics. So this was the first time in my lifetime, that is after 22 years of my  birth I started staying along with my mom. Its being almost 2 years now. This job has given me a chance to know my mom in more better way. The closeness that we share now was not there when we were not staying together.  I learnt so many good things from her which will be helpful to me throughout my life. Though there are lots of negative points in my job this one advantage puts a shadow over all the negativities.

WHAT EVER HAPPENS IS FOR A GOOD REASON. GOD HAS PRE-WRITTEN EVERYTHING WHAT WE DESERVE AND WHAT WE DON'T. WHEN THERE ARE CERTAIN WRONG THINGS GOING ON IN OUR LIFE WHICH WE NEVER EXPECTED, FOR SURE HE HAS PLANNED OUT ONE RIGHT THING, WHICH IS THE BEST FOR US .

Now when I question myself "My Present Job... A Curse Or A Boon???" My heart spontaneously answers me Yeah!!! It is a boon :-)

Is This The Right Time To Get Committed???

I don't know how to start with as there are so many thoughts striking my mind at the same time. But, all these thoughts ends with the same question.

Is This The Right Time To Get Committed???

I even don't know if I am doing right by sharing these thoughts in a Blog. You must be thinking about which commitment am I thinking so deeply. Obviously, what can be more bigger commitment then getting married. Yeah! Thinking about my marriage. But, it ends with the same question again.

Is This The Right Time To Get Committed???

I being a only daughter have led a life of a Princess. Have always got what ever I have wished. Or I can even say I am being granted with more then that I have wished. But, once I get married will all the things remain same? Well, every girl has this question in her mind pre-marriage. And the answer for this question is 'NO'. Nothing is going to remain same. A new beginning, a new journey, a new life with so many new responsibilities will all of a sudden change my life with this new commitment. I am aware of all this and that is why I have the question.

Is This The Right Time To Get Committed???

Right from the time I realized what marriage is I had a very strong thought that I would definitely go for an arrange marriage. I wanted my Mom to find a match for me. But, my Mom as she has always given me the full freedom to take the major decision's of my life whether it was in choosing my Education Field or it was in choosing my career, she again gave me full permission even to take this important decision of finding a match myself. Only few lucky people get the chance to choose their own life partner with the parents support and I am the one among those lucky people. But, this time I dint want this chance. In fact I wish I could grant this chance to someone who was really in need of it. I wish at least that person  could utilize this chance and make it an opportunity to marry their loved one without any objection from there parents. But in my case this freedom is just a waste due to my interest in an arrange marriage. This interest was because I had a strong belief that arrange marriages are more successful. But, one day while discussing with my friend on this topic just one sentence of my friend changed my complete opinion. The sentence was "Any kinda marriages are successful the only necessity is finding a right partner". How true :-)

Hmmmmm... My Mom is going to take a charge of finding a match for me in the first month of coming year. Well, This is the thing which  I had always dreamed of.  But even when everything is going on according to my wish.. Why is that I am having so many questions still running in my mind? Is it normal to think so much? May be Yes. Might be all girls have same kind a thoughts which I have right now prior to taking such an important decision of life. So many unanswered questions, so many weird thoughts. But all thoughts start with the same question.

Is This The Right Time To Get Committed???